Well, I’m looking forward to blogging about the Big Event this weekend, along with many others, I have been looking forward to it for some time. I’m hoping to hook up with like minded people and get some feedback on where I’m at with my bead making, and I’m especially interested to see some well known and excellent bead makers giving demonstrations.
After last week’s crazy, obsessive time in the Shed of Destiny I decided to step back from bead making a bit, it was all getting too much. I want to be good at what I do but in pursuit of that I became hyper-critical and perfectionistic, it was so tiring! I banned myself from the shed and took photos of beads and posted them in my website shop instead, something I had meant to do for ages but always opted for making more beads, whereupon I felt bad about making beads and letting other important things slide. Ugh, it’s tough being a wilful artist! Anyway, I felt much better for the break and managed to get a better perspective on life for a few days.
Today I fired up the torch and had the pleasure of introducing a creative friend, Tako, to the process of bead making, his beads are in the kiln right now, and we have the anticipation of seeing the beads in the morning.
And here they are – Tako didn’t really think they were that good, but most bead makers would acknowledge that they’re pretty amazing for first ever beads. If I remember correctly, the bead on the right was approx 3cm high, so he’s started out big. Excellent. Shame he doesn’t have access to bead making equipment where he lives, but who knows, maybe one day…
I got my replacement phone today. Apparently this Nokia model will ‘improve’ my image. Hah!
Now I must do a bit of ironing for my trip, which is why I’m writing this, anything to avoid ironing! Actually, being overweight is quite useful at times, providing one can actually get the item on, filling out a piece of clothing with plumpness means less ironing : ) Silver linings and all that.
Two things happened to me today –
Firstly, I dropped my Nokia 9300 into the sea. Expletive, Expletive, Expletive! I’m going to borrow hubbie’s wellies in a minute and go for a wade as the tide has gone out again, my own wellies are still soaked from an earlier rescue effort. I’m pretty good about backing up info so that’s not a worry, but I’ve had that phone since mid 2005, and suddenly I don’t…there was nothing wrong with it, it wasn’t even on it’s way out and about to be replaced. In fact, I have an LG Chocolate still in the box, rejected in favour of my ‘old’ phone when I took out a new contract. I really ought to ebay it.
I lost my phone today because I was juggling three dogs, leads, poo bags, a dog toy, and a camera, and I lost track of coat zippers. Oh well, as they say, ‘worse things happen at sea’, and they do.
Talk about a quick update to a story. David came to tell me that there were lots of people on the beach, didn’t I want to hurry up and get down there? I downed the last slug of my coffee, raced onto the beach, asked if anyone had seen a phone and they shook their heads blankly, far more focused on rock pools and shells. I looked about five yards to my left, and there it was, the familiar brick shape, silvery against the sand. Has there ever been anyone before who was glad to see their phone even though it was utterly kaput? I just wanted to say ‘goodbye’ to it and move on.
Secondly, I sold my first bead via my website, and not to someone I know. Now that was a great antidote to the phone issue, I am delighted. Note that I am resisting over use of exclamation marks…
Ooh, and I got a delivery from Tuffnell Glass, yummy CiM glass, mmmm…..and some excellent silver bead caps from bumpybeads.co.uk.
So, all’s well, that ends well.
Hmm…I haven’t made beads for a couple of days and am having withdrawals. Today I decided to be ‘good’ before I rewarded myself with a bead session, as I really do need to get myself a regular income. I began by updating my cv, which doesn’t represent me very well at all. A dry old list of school qualifications and subsequent employment through some difficult years does not reflect who I am today, or what I can offer. I think I can offer a lot, but how to put that on paper?
In the process I managed to give myself another migraine…it was as if Clariss Cliff and Kandinsky had come to play, great colours and shapes where my vision was missing, and then the flashing patterns. Thank God the doctor prescribed tablets to kill the migraine before pain sets in, but of course I had to crash out as a result of taking them. Still, I’m up and about on the same day, which is miraculous, but I do feel as if I’ve lost hours to migraine again, and it’s quite simply due to stress. I’m sure that once I’m earning I won’t be so prone.
When I got up from my restful slumber (accompanied by Cat, as usual) I saw the Bodyshock programme featuring 31-year-old neurofibromatosis sufferer Huang Chuncai. It was very touching.
Have I got problems? No!
It baffles me that I need reminding of my good fortune quite so often, gratitude is so important.
I’m pretty excited about going to the Flame Off, I’m particularly looking forward to the demonstrations by glass bead makers whose work I admire, I’m hoping to learn.
Every now and then I pull something out of the kiln and think ‘Hey! I’m actually doing quite well at this bead making lark’ then I see a piece on another website (Judith Johnston and Dora Schubert, JCHerrel, Melanie Moertel, to name but a tiny few – I see a links page coming on) and feel slightly deflated, the benchmarks are set high. I expect everyone has those moments of inadequacy, and that’s where meeting other beaders is essential, they seem to be a friendly bunch, and I hope to get a better perspective on where I’m at by the time the event is over.
I did a bad thing the other night. I melted some silver wire and forgot about fumes…sore throat, and feeling horrible for a couple of days ensued. Fool Woman!!! Will not melt metals without some kind of mask on again, it’s just plain idiotic.
Had a lovely moment while making a bead the other day, as I turned it over I spotted a perfectly placed naturally occurring hole, so I put a muted pink dot in it. I like making heart beads, it’s very satisfying when the shape works out well.
Yesterday my husband’s replacement shed was delivered (the original one was blown down in the January gales) so we spent some time clearing the old debris and I got to be his skivvie. Great. All I wanted to do was play at the torch (that’s not unusual, that’s all I ever want to do) so when I got fed up playing slave I’d pop into my shed and make a few sample beads. I need a reference board of CiM colours, I LOVE the lazy way CiM glass moves when it’s hot, lots of time to get it where I want it to go. I’m off to put in an order, yum yum yum…